I personally don’t know how many types of anxiety there are, but I know there are a few. And I might hold one or even several due to the therapists I've in the past would often ask. But due to alexithymia I had difficulties describing it. I do have friends who have different types and that’s my only outlook on anxiety.

I think I suffer from social anxiety the most.

Since I am rather introverted, and as a child I was shy, still am to a point. But due to masking and the years I've been doing it I can overcome some of it.

For example, one on one I don’t mind, I copy the recipient's personality and use that. And for groups, I just play the clown, everyone like a funny person.



But not stand in the middle of the room and perform sort of clown, but someone who tells jokes in smaller circles of people, be it if I know them or not. But these are my coping mechanisms, and everyone is built differently. I could just sit quietly in a corner with a smaller friend group which I do also.

And these days I hardly go out, sort of becoming a hermit. The recent lockdowns didn’t help and if I want to go out, I need a specific reason and will hold back in going out until a better reason is needed.

Like ‘oh I need item X, well I can wait’ the next day ‘okay now I need X, Y, Z, best to go out.’ and now with Christmas is coming up as I am writing this. Going out shopping is something I would like to avoid, just too many people, all packed together. Even with headphones on it can be too much.